my mother basically just told me that i would grow old alone, take up bell ringing and have 100s of cats.
thanks for having my back mum.

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A Heavy Heart To Carry

"i always wanted to be an angel but i only ever got sheep number 2 or something...i don't think i've ever gotten over this"

i feel this says alot about my adult life in general


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The World Has Changed. So I Must Change As Well

I'm really looking forward to tonight. like really really!

life is good

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I'm Working On Drawing A Straight Line

i should have realised sooner that our views about life were just too different...
you think that life is meant to be fun
i think its meant to be hard

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Head Over Feet

"You treat me like I'm a princess
I'm not used to liking that
You ask how my day was
....
Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn't help it
It's all your fault
Your love is thick and it swallowed me whole
You're so much braver than I gave you credit for"

this song is lame and so am i... but we all knew this anyway

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My Year In Lists

i'm sorry i haven't blogged in a few days... i haven't had much to say i'm afraid

and anyway everyone knows that you only read this blog to see what Dagger has been up to

my life isn't very exciting

and i'm not very witty

lady of the house of love

This Morning:

- I failed at making porridge.
- I realised I can actually spell porridge.
- I successfully washed my hair with the little bits out of the bottom of about five different shampoo bottles.
- I accidentally plucked a massive hole into one of my eyebrows.
- I felt a bit sick.
- I found all the books I need to give back to the library.
- I am not worried about money.
- I'm wearing really quite nice underwear.
- I have listened to far too many Bad Manners songs.
- I feel like a giggly sixteen year old again.
- I really abuse Blogger's spell check system.
- I'm really really really happy.

I abuse lists.

- Dagger.

Things that impress me:
- Not having to be on set till 12.
- Getting up at eight anyway and deciding to go to work.
- The way me heart feels every time someone says 'action'
- Kirby grips.
- Red lipstick.
- Extreme close ups.
- Fully charged laptops.
- Strawberry laces.
- Nice biscuits.
- Flesh coloured tights.
- The pleasant weather.
- Not having to hoover my purple suits.

- Dagger.

We will piant the shoes and it will be okay.
I am ill and tired and my shoulder blades ache. But I am happy. Ever so happy.

- Dagger.

It Seems My Feet Can't Stand The Ground No More

i can't believe i have so many amazing people in my life right now

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Oscar Wilde himself once said “biography lends to death a new terror”, so I’ll try and keep this as brief and entertaining as possible. Talking of Mr. Wilde, I saw ‘The Importance of Being Earnest’ when I was about eight at my local theatre, I found the whole situation terribly amusing and immediately wanted to change my name to Bunbury. I was a slightly odd child.

My first ever memory is of racing my sister towards an oak tree, falling and crying, I was clearly destined for a life of failure, emotional pain and a deep seated hatred for any form of running. Despite all this, I had quite a pleasant childhood, there always seemed to be an abundance of picnics, airplanes and ice cream. I didn’t learn to swim until I was eighteen, and I still can’t ride a bike, but I have many happy memories of waddling around a beach in an orange swimsuit eating cocktail sausages.

That’s clearly all very idealised, truthfully I don’t remember much about anything that happened before about five minutes ago. I know I wet myself once in class and I know I was very excited about getting a uniform just like my sister. Apparently I went to America once too, but this I don’t recall in the slightest, and I still haven’t completely discounted the fact that my parents might actually be lying about this just to make my childhood sound vaguely exciting.

- Dagger.

I Told You I Loved You Every Time I Fucked You.

Today I Realised:
- My mother is inevitably right about the whole 'shoes vs weather' situation.
- I let on exactly how East London I am when I say the word 'Bagel'.
- Further more, where ever I walk in East London I end up in Brick Lane.
- Trains actually really bore me.
- I enjoy 'Bad Manners' more than is really neccesary.
- I'm actually okay taking about it.
- My fourteen year old self would probably think I'm really cool.
- My mother told me the people who do not accet my sexuality are not worth my time. She is unbelievably right about this.
- I really like sushi.
- You had time to call me when you thought you stood a chance at fucking me.
- I really, really, really want to be your girlfriend.

- Dagger.

Judy Is A Punk

This blog fails at letting me upload pictures.

I thought I should update everyone on my social life.
Amanda hosts amazing dinner parties. And the co-op makes suprisingly good cheesecake.

It is now my aim to own a studio with a pull down bed.

Life is good.

-Dagger.

Somethings Happened In The Attic

this blog is being dedicated to the fact that:

we fail at blogging again

and for the fact that i've spent far too many nights with a certain girl drinking wine this week

and that i may or may not have an obsession with amazon

and that i still haven't got rid of this cold

and that i actually cleaned my room this week

and that i'm excited for my new project

and i love my inspirational stickers

and for hiding under blankets whilst watching horror films

and my general heart pounding love for the team we call wilberforce and of course my Dagger

lady of the house of love

XxX

If I Admitted?

No picture today.
I'm watching couples fight about stag parties on Jeremy Kyle.

I want to run away to Paris and make my fortune drawing things even though I cannot draw in a coherent fashion.
I know what I want and it's very very scary.

My man danced with me last night and it was utter perfection.

Must dash,

-Dagger.

Life Is Too Short To Live Without Poetry

so i'm back in london... i think i've fully decided that this is the city i call home.
i don't think i want to go back to Leicester... i want to run away from uni and rent a 1 room flat above a vintage clothing shop in Camden town and make crazy t-shirts.

since i've been home i've:
been to a gig
seen 3 exhibitions
bought 2 books
spent £3 on 2 cups of tea
had a hug from my mum
fallen in love with another stranger on the tube
gave directions
got slightly lost
been woken up by my cat
decided that 1 of my tutors really isn't so bad
discovered some amazing clothes i left here
and saw some wax being shot out of a cannon

tomorrow i'm going to got the bank, colour my hair and watch t.v
its going to be good i think

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Today I Don't Feel Pretty

true story.

its 5 days now

and i have a kitten on my laptop

i visited my Nan today, i forgot how much she rules...we had chicken and chips for lunch followed by apple crumble and about a million cups of tea

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Are You Angry?

No picture today.

I've decided I'm not leaving my house today. The cinema can come to me.
I tried on everything in my wardrobe and ended up wearing my frog print pjs.

- Dagger.

What You Need Is A Sunny Sunny Day

no picture today- you have to use your imagination.

today i have taken pleasure in the little things.

i went out with the dog this afternoon,
the sun was warm,
and i enjoyed the breeze on my skin
i span in circles and i ran across a field.
i kicked the fallen leaves,
the ground was soft and bouncy from the rain yesterday.
i don't think summer has gone just yet.

i think that if i move to the city i will miss the sound of the trees whispering to each other.

tomorrow i'm going to get up early

today has been the first day in weeks that i've actually eaten breakfast, lunch and dinner

getting up at lunch time is over rated

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Open House, Open Heart.

Rethinnking A Hypothesis On Life
Maybe We Could Do The Scary Things
We Should Do All The Scary Things
Maybe Thats What Makes Them All Less Scary
Im Glad There Are Poeple That Care
For You Me And Eachother
Sometimes We Need To Share
And There's enough Emotion To Rock This Solar System
We Are Insignificant In Time And Space
Making Everything Irrelivent
Apart From The Ability To Share
Life
Love
Time
And Moments With Eachother
Perfect Irrelivence In All Its Glory
Forever In comments Within Eachother

Love For All

Painted In Ink