"i don't know what i just did but now its all wet"- points at crotch

lady of the house of love & Dagger

All The People Said That's Okay, You Know The Sun Will Shine Another Day On You.

Things i must continue to remind myself in 2011-

• everything happens for a reason
• i have an unrealistic impression of myself
• i am a strong, independent woman
• for 2 thirds of 2010 i was happy and i will be again
• i need to work on my self confidence
• i must rid myself of all negative thoughts and be positive
• move on from the past
• make a promise to see my friends and family more often
• to tell myself that i am a beautiful, creative, talented person

i guess you could call this my new years resolution(s)

lady of the house of love

Ask Me Why And I'll Die

“art does not reproduce the visible; rather it makes visible.”
paul klee

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Can't Do It By Myself

I'm going to stay with my dad for a few days
i'll see you news years eve my dear readers

lady of the house of love

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I survived the Christmas sales by standing perfectly still in the middle of New Look singing "Park Life" at my mother.

I love going dancing with you too.

-Dagger.

It's Over, You're Second Best

to the many toasts of last night:
-"here's to 2011"
-"here's to bitches who won't screw us over!"

i love going dancing with you

lady of the house of love

Interesting Things That Have Happened To Me This Year:

- Food poisoning.
- Theatre.
- Back-combing hair.
- Straight firsts.
- Film sets.
- A DOP with guitarists fingers.
- Discovering I can vaguely write.
- Multiple pregnancy scares.
- Crying in Southend high street.
- 13 pints of cider.
- Billy Idol in the rain.
- Rooftop cinema.
- Understanding the concept of heartbreak bringing physical pain.
- Making you take your boots off to paddle with me.
- Oral sex.
- Ancient Greek.
- Kissing the mole on the back of your neck.
- A night with an Italian.
- Getting angry about politics.
- Wearing trousers and matching underwear and getting out of the bath and going to yours and feeling wonderful and smoking afterwards.
- Realising I am in love with you. Realising it will never work. Realising I am okay with this.
- The best sex ever.
- Sarah Kane.
- A foot tattoo.
- 136 pages of  'Mask in Performance.'
- You cooking the most delicious meals for me.
- Snow.
- Wearing three jumpers and sitting on the floor as lights are packed away and you tell me you love having me on your team.

Next year will be better.

- Dagger.

Christmas TV

here's hoping you have a very lovely Christmas dear reader

lady of the house of love

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For a lot of people it's the coming out bit that's hard, the getting up the guts to tell everyone you're gay bit. That was easy for me, everyone seemed to know. No one had a problem. Everyone asked me who the lucky lady was. And you see this is the thing. It's a year later and I'm still sitting around in my sex pistols pjs knitting tea cosies for my mum.

I adore being gay, I just suck at it.

- Dagger. 

Happy Christmas Eve.

- Dagger.

I genuinely adore this costume.

- Dagger.

Please Don't Take My Man, Just Because You Can

i had a nice quiet evening alone planned, with some soft music, some white wine, a bit of pampering and looking forward to the prospect of going home to a wonderful christmas.

instead you have again managed to make me feel like nothing and i'm sat in my room praying away the hours til i can get away from you.

i can.not. believe that you can still make me feel so terrible.

something good had better come my way in the new year because i really think its about time that it does... instead of putting me through the same old shit that i cannot handle any more.

"i could never love again, he's the only one for me Jolene"

lady of the house of love

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Next year I will find a girl who won't cheat on me, won't try and punch me in the face, and won't spend seven hours making out with my best friend.
Maybe.

-Dagger.

Why Is This Bed Room So Cold, Turn Away On Your Side

i'm wearing two jumpers in my room and i'm still freezing- like wearing gloves, can't feel my toes freezing...

i'm trying to get ready to go home on monday but i seriously don't think i'm going to fit everything in my suitcase- i might die trying to carry everything. fml

lady of the house of love

Reasons I Have No Blogged For Ages:

- My USB keyboard broke. And I fail quite spectacularly at the on screen keyboard.
- My phone broke, no more mobile internet for me.
- Deadlines.
- Dissertations.
- Trying to sew corsets. Failing to sew corsets.
- Pulling all nighters. Not in the fun "lots of cider and trying to buy a burger at five in the morning" way.
- Spring Awakening.
- Dinner at Simon's.
- Gay drama.

It's December and I still cry about you nearly everyday.
I give up on love, and women.

- Dagger.

I Can Still See You

i've been drinking since lunch time- and i shall continue drinking until the early hours of this morning

i love celebrating the end of term

lady of the house of love

Some Girls Wander By Mistake

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i feel that this post needs to be a good ole list- cos we haven't had one in a while

last night was about:

• red lipstick
• cold and flu meds
• free shots
• kissing the cheeks of strangers
• being chatted up in the toilets
• more free shots
• hearing my song
• singing extra loudly
• waiting ages for a cab
• eating left over pizza at 4am
• hilarious photos
• feeling stunning
• looking stunning
• a drag queen singing blondie
• black sambuca
• awesome friends
• the promise to go out with them more often

not particularly in this order though

lady of the house of love

Do You Believe In Magic? In A Young Girls Heart?

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Now I'm Alone And I Can Think For Myself

today has been pretty unspectacular but at the same time... it's been the best day i've had in a long time

didn't i tell you the other day that life was good?

lady of the house of love

I Hear You're Doing Okay, But I Want To Know. I'm A Dick.

i had an amazingly great time last night and now i know exactly how i'm going to add to my rose tattoo

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The World Has Changed. So I Must Change As Well

I'm really looking forward to tonight. like really really!

life is good

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If I Were Her I'd Paint My Skin Til All Of It Was Gone

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You're In Love With Someone Else, It Should Be Me...

...It Could Be Me, That's Changing...

this band has made my week

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Good Morning Heart Ache, What's New?

 i will be spending all day doing illustrations and listening to Billie Holiday... i'm my pjs

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It Was Just One Of Those Things

i don't have time to blog... 4 days til the deadline!

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What Happens When You Loose Everything?

You Just Start Again. You Start All Over Again...

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From The Land Where You Still Hear The Cries

i've had a very productive day but i still feel like shit at the end of it

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