Let The World All Go To Shit

E: did you see those guys outside the front door?
H: yeah don't you get a bag with some leaflets in?
E: and a bottle opener keyring, a badge and a condom
H: ah well what more could you ask for?

i definately need to find this club at some point

i also need to find iceland, i'm running out of food already

lady of the house of love

"...and you also get this glow in the dark sperm keyring"

actually the funniest thing i've heard all week

lady of the house of love

-I Guess That's Sensible...

- Yes, but not romantic. And Romance is Important. Don't you think?

Dagger

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- Dagger.

SAVED!

Insides And Outsides.

- Dagger.

...

"when you don't look your best, you shouldn't even look at yourself in the mirror. you should put on your most beautiful wrapper. you should look your best for yourself when you're alone. you can't afford not to look good alone or you'll stay alone"

- Mae West

lady of the house of love

It's Been A Long Strange Day

so today two people have moved in, but i'm being terribly unsociable

i really wish classes would hurry up and start

because right now i just want to go home

no picture today

lady of the house of love

Art Is A Guarantee Of Sanity

Do you remeber when we went to her exbo. and I walked into a giant bronze cock?

There are many, many, many reasons why this woman is my role model.

- Dagger

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I'm all a fluster with insperation!

- Dagger

Horror!

Seduced By Zeus.

Today I miss my best friend so much it hurts a little bit.

- Dagger.

Nothing To See Here People

this picture was taken by my dad, but only cos i told him to and i didnt have a camera

there are sadly no naked people in my flat

but there are some rather scary looking guys in the flat opposite *scared face*


lady of the house of love

A Time To Be So Small

so i am now officially a university student!
i am pleasantly surprised at how nice my room is
and i have a big shopping list of things to get today as i am pretty much food less but i'm meeting up with someone from college as i pretty much don't know where anything is here!

i'm also totally on my own in my flat right now which you could say is bad times... i've had music on constantly since my mum left... i don't want to dwell on that too much cos i'll probably cry again

but whilst i was making pasta last night i noticed that i have the most stunning view from the kitchen, look on and bask in its glory:

sorry about the horrid picture but the windows don't open enough to take a picture lol
i still don't have any i.d so i won't be going out this weekend but never mind as long as i get it for freshers i'll be fine

lady of the house of love

He's Good In Bed?

Me: What did you do before you discovered daytime T.V?
Her: I don't know. I must have done... things?

It makes me uneasy when Jeremy Kyle talks to children.

- Dagger.

This Is The First Day Of My Life

and my last night here in basildon

at least for a while...

so tonight i will be packing away my little dell ready for the move tomorrow,
i'm sitting here on my bed looking at my room, i expected it to look somewhat bare but it doesnt at all, which makes me feel worried and comforted all at the same time.

this might be my last post for a while, i'm not sure what my internet situation is going to be when i get there tomorrow...lets hope i can get it set up though... i will actually die without internet, even for one day.

i feel much calmer today, the only thing i'm worried about right now is the fact that i don't think all my stuff will fit into my mums tiny tiny car.
my face may end up smushed into window.
i want you all to pray for me to the god of motor vehicles as we really don't want the car to break down...

wish me luck for tomorrow everyone

i love you all

oh and send special healing vibes to Dagger as she is braless for a week... bad times

lady of the house of love

XxX

It's Actually Quite A Pleasant Feeling.

The low point of my day... picking basil pasta out of my bag and into a bin. In the middle of Cambridge High Street. Whilst not wearing a bra.

- Dagger.

Oui!

Oui!

I actually, really,sincerely wish I had antlers sometimes.

- Dagger

Oh.

Make Me Over.
I have no idea who made this, but I do know who did the make up.

Life suprises me.

- Dagger.

Jesus Died For Somebody's Sins But Not Mine

i recently discovered Patti Smith... she rocks my world and makes everything seem a little better

so stuff is still fucked up

but i think i feel slightly better

Dagger makes me feel less stressed out

so big hugs for her

i can't quite decide if i'm excited or not

or just a bit nervous

and i seem to be permanently in a bad mood

i will post once more from basildon and then its to university i go

wish me luck, if any thing else goes wrong i will defo need it

lady of the house of love

The Internet Has Run Out Of Interesting.

CAPITALISM ISN'T WORKING.
It's Up To You To Do Something About It.


Wow. This blog just got political?

- Dagger.

I Think The Internet Is Breaking.

Kaos Reigns.

So. I'm looking for something to inspire me. Go.

- Dagger

No One Could Love Me This Way

no picture today

i was just explaining to a good friend of mine everything that is wrong with my life right now

i've had a very bad day today

heres a copy of that list

1. i sent off for a citzencard which should have turned up yesterday and it hasnt and i didnt fill in the form right so now i have to send it back and i needed it for this weekend
2. I cant open a new bank account without any id
3. i also cant go out tonight with out any id, which means i wont get to see the college girls before i go uni
4. i still havent heard from student finance so i have no money
5. im moving in 3 days and i havent even begun to pack
6. and i still wont have any id for when i get there
7. i cant send off my passport form cos student finace have got my birth certificate
8. my parents have replaced me with 2 kittens, a camera and guiter hero 5
9. i won't have a room when i come home from uni
10. i hate my unsymmetrical face
11. i hate my hair
12. and my general fat personage
13. i've had stomach ache for 3 days
14. and i've hardly slept all week

fuck my life

fuck me and my life

lady of the house of love

Today I Don't Feel Pretty

true story.

its 5 days now

and i have a kitten on my laptop

i visited my Nan today, i forgot how much she rules...we had chicken and chips for lunch followed by apple crumble and about a million cups of tea

lady of the house of love

Who Can Be Sure?

I still have NO idea what to wear.
But I found this picture my google imaging "Potato Sack" which cheered me up amazingly.

- Dagger

Are You Angry?

No picture today.

I've decided I'm not leaving my house today. The cinema can come to me.
I tried on everything in my wardrobe and ended up wearing my frog print pjs.

- Dagger.

What You Need Is A Sunny Sunny Day

no picture today- you have to use your imagination.

today i have taken pleasure in the little things.

i went out with the dog this afternoon,
the sun was warm,
and i enjoyed the breeze on my skin
i span in circles and i ran across a field.
i kicked the fallen leaves,
the ground was soft and bouncy from the rain yesterday.
i don't think summer has gone just yet.

i think that if i move to the city i will miss the sound of the trees whispering to each other.

tomorrow i'm going to get up early

today has been the first day in weeks that i've actually eaten breakfast, lunch and dinner

getting up at lunch time is over rated

lady of the house of love

He's Got Something.

Our Shopping List:
- Two sandwiches no egg.
- Milk
- Condoms.
- A Yorkie bar.

Being a student rules.

- Dagger.

- Dagger.

Forever Bruised And Black Eyed

www.colorquiz.com

I found this on http://rubiexoxo.blogspot.com/
and i felt i just had to take the test myself...thank you for posting this and giving me something to do on my boring tuesday night.
these are my results...what do you think?

Your Existing Situation
"Is sensitive and easily influenced by other's thoughts and emotions. Looking for friendly, easy-going relationships and jobs that help develop them."

Your Stress Sources
"Sensitive, gentle, and emotional; having a strong need to find some sort of magical harmony and beauty. Artistic in nature, she longs to find a partner who finds these things important as well; however, having trouble finding such a perfect person. Keeps a close eye on her emotional and how much of herself is given to others. she must always know where she stands with others and longs to be regarded with respect. her taste are geared to the artistically beautiful and refined, but she can be harsh and critical of works of art and creativity. Yearns to make friends with those who can help build her intelligence and artistic ability."

Your Restrained Characteristics
Current events leave her feeling forced into compromise in order to avoid being cut off from affection or future cooperation.
Conceited and is easily insulted. Holds back emotionally but is able to find satisfaction through sexual activity.

Your Desired Objective
"Is very goal oriented and driven, and does not allow things to distract her from reaching her goals. Overcomes all obstacles she is faced with. Wants to gain recognition and a good reputation for her successes."

Your Actual Problem
"Wishes she was more spontaneous and impulsive, but holds back because she needs things to be in order, rational, and clearly defined."
"Enjoys making new plans and goals, but needs to be respected and admired for the things she accomplishes."

well this makes me feel vulnerable and insecure

lady of the house of love

Darling, place a seal over my heart a love enduring as the grave.

They say true love does not.

It wasn't soft words, it wasn't the tender kisses or deep embraces...

What do you want from me?

You say baby I want your love

Let me love you..

I stand and weep because I believed love didn't exist.

But you have proved me wrong

melted my heart of stone..

Your love is like the ocean

swimming in your presence.

Baby, they say true love doesn't exist.

But over and over you prove me wrong.

Its you Jesus its you.

A love like no other

Teaching me love like no other

Baby its you.

Is it not wrong to love you?

Two Sugars Please

Romance still exists doesn't it?

You Make Me Happy.

- Dagger.

Open House, Open Heart.

Rethinnking A Hypothesis On Life
Maybe We Could Do The Scary Things
We Should Do All The Scary Things
Maybe Thats What Makes Them All Less Scary
Im Glad There Are Poeple That Care
For You Me And Eachother
Sometimes We Need To Share
And There's enough Emotion To Rock This Solar System
We Are Insignificant In Time And Space
Making Everything Irrelivent
Apart From The Ability To Share
Life
Love
Time
And Moments With Eachother
Perfect Irrelivence In All Its Glory
Forever In comments Within Eachother

Love For All

Painted In Ink

It Had Your Mouth It Had Your Face

I Would Have Kept It If I'd Stayed

"i bought you some student essentials... i got you some pasta and some beans"

and then we laughed

thank you for the plates, bowls and mugs and for the bottle of wine.

we got 2 new kittens this weekend

they are just too cute

but also rather mischievous

you moved away this weekend

i'm going to miss you but it would seem that i'm next

so we will both be busy

but keep in touch yeah

i'm pretty much ready t0 move out myself

just need to pack everything up

and get my mother to stop moaning about having to drive me there

back to the cat issue...i'm going to miss my mia

i wish i had a Peter Driben on my skin

Still Ill

lady of the house of love

XxX

Do You Ever Get Letters From Your Mother Telling You Everything You Do Is Wrong?

No, My Mother Thinks Everything I Do Is Right. But Of Course I Don't Tell My Mother Everything I Do.

- Dagger.

We Feel Every Kind Of Feeling Except The Feeling Of Relief.

This picture is actually from a 1976 production of South Pacific at Camp Diana-Dalmaqua. Where ever that is. Who knows? Who cares anymore? But these pictures are fascinating me for no apparent reason.

I'm becoming nostalgic over an existence that does not belong to me.

Anyway. My point was... I love this film.

- Dagger.

P.S. I LOVE YOU.

We're Not That Fucking Stupid.

Choose life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fucking big television, Choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players, and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol and dental insurance. Choose fixed- interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose leisure wear and matching luggage. Choose a three piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who you are on a Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing sprit- crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pishing you last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked-up brats you have spawned to replace yourself. Choose your future. Choose life... But why would I want to do a thing like that?

- Dagger.

Lungs And Liver.

I know.

- Dagger.

Not The Man You Think I Am

And Sorrows Native Son, He Will Not Smile For Anyone

I Lost My Faith In Women Hood
this is Lucy - see iD magazine... i'm not explaining it any further

i haven't been feeling too good lately

lady of the house of love

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Her: Wow! Look at your big tattoo! Aren't you brave?!
Me: Ummm. It didn't hurt actually.
Her: No I mean it's just so beautiful! It's actually perfect! Do you need an extra bag for your toilet roll?
Me: Thanks? I'm alright?

I love love LOVE the old ladies that work in my co-op.

- Dagger.

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Your clear eyes looking at me from between my legs.

- Dagger.

Your Kiss Almost Matched Mine Perfectly.

- Dagger

Separation Sunday

no picture today

So tonight i'm off to see 'The Hold Steady'
but what to wear? this is the question...

i'm feeling slightly melancholy today so as long as they play 'Lord I'm Discouraged' i shall be happy

today i'm feeling defeated by the system, by 'the man' and by myself
and the importance of doing nothing is speaking out to me

lady of the house of love

Death And Culture.

This belongs on my solar plexus.

- Dagger.

I'd Started Wearing Makeup In Broad Daylight Age 14

There is something about this that drives me crazy (sorry about the crap scan though)

see Kabukimagic.com

i have just composed an angry letter to student finance, it probably won't make them sort out my application any quicker but it makes me feel slighlty better about the situation

its really quite hot in here... i should probably shower before i'm late

lady of the house of love

XxX

STOP BLOGGING

There is something amazingly peaceful about standing in the middle of the street at night with no shoes on.

- Dagger.

Just Look Past The Genocide

I'm blogging right now for Dagger...cos she is without laptop and i know that she would totally want me to

but any way this is just a short message to let you know that we are changing the name of our burlesque act to ...drum roll please:

"Involuntary Burlesque"

it will change your life... the clothes will magically fall off

also check out tomtom crew specifically tom thum it will blow your mind!

"if i go to church on Sunday and cabaret all day Monday t'aint nobodies business if i do"

had an epic night in Soho with my gal.love it.

lady of the house of love

XxX

Every Me And Every You

"I hate fashion as much as i love it. I'm seduced bu it but i believe that ultimately it makes you feel unhappy with yourself. so I've always tried to be humorous with it and critical of it."

so today i went to the Rankin Retrospective

i actually love brick lane

i got two super cute necklaces

(i'll post a picture later)

and then i had a salad at pizza express

and then we went to the Jeffery West shop

i want a shop where the walls are covered in red velvet

and then i had some tea and a lemon cup cake

and on the way home i fell in love with a strange boy who was staring at me on the central line

his stare made me feel slightly sick

and as i was getting off the train i smiled at him

his clothes didn't match, his shoes were scuffed and he made me feel uneasy but my god he was stunning

J; 'you should have licked his face and then been like 'oh sorry i couldn't help myself. you see the thing is we'd have stunning children'

E:'oh i wish i did say that, it would have made a great story to tell the kids lol'

J: 'you should have gone with the whole 'see, this is why we should have sex theory.'

i love the text messages my friends send me

lady of the house of love

XxX

- Dagger.

God Must Hate Me

actually fuck my life

student finance actually hate me

if i don't get this sorted out i'm actually not going to university

cos as we all know i am dirt poor....

do you know why this has happened?

because i was just starting to look forward to it

and as usual its come to bite me in the arse

so thanks for that

no picture- obviously

lady of the house of love

no kisses- obviously

Here Today But Forgotten Tomorrow

"to be yourself is not a crime"

today has been all about waiting for buses, collecting old work from college, buying cheap books and Billy Talent

lady of the house of love

XxX

Bet You're Wondering How I Knew.

No picture today.

Dave has gone to put the washing on. It's making me feel uneasy blogging on such a big screen.
The moon does really strange things to us.

Right now I'm missing my Lady.
And I wish I could text her Midnight Radio lyrics but my phone has no battery. As always.

Why do we assume we have the correct blood type to share organs?

Honestly and truly I love each and every one of you who is reading this.
Join our revolution.

- Dagger

You've Got A Thing For Me

i think i might be in love
he'll be in london in october- lets go

http://www.myspace.com/perishable

it would seem that when i have nothing else to do...i blog

if you have a problem with this

you can keep it to yourself cos i don't really care

lady of the house of love

Exhale, Exhale

so today was the last day,

i have actually been working there for 3 years

they made me a card though

which made me realise that no one in retail can actually spell correctly

and K didn't get into university which makes me feel rather smug

no matter how mean that is... i'm willing to take karma on

but that might not be such a good idea as i now need a new job

right now i should be doing something productive

but i'm not feeling creative or inspired

and all i want to do right now is listen to loud music and eat chocolate

but the moving out day is getting closer and closer

and i'm not prepared in any way shape or form

"and i will die all alone and when i arrive i won't know anyone"

and so i need to post this picture

to remember better times of living in bubbles

sorry

i'm feeling rather down today

lady of the house of love

Infra-Red

i'm actually in love

see: http://cordellorr.deviantart.com/

or: http://www.coroflot.com/public/individual_details.asp?individual_id=135583

"someone call the ambulance, there's gonna be an accident"

i've listened to ALOT of Placebo lately

i'm in love with Brian

but then again... who isn't?

i've had alot of love for alot of things lately

i wish my lungs weren't rotting

i love that you would give me a lung

i'd give you a kidney

lady of the house of love

XxX

Midnight surprise

61 Fetal Trapping in Northern California

Mark Ryden

i wish babies did come from trees

maybe the world would be a better place if they did

"Maybe the definition or home is a place where you are never forgiven so that you may always belong there, bound by guilt...."

maybe then we wouldn't have as many things to tie us to one place and we would be free

but then again maybe we would just be tied to the forest we came from instead

"...Maybe the cost of belonging is worth it"

this is for Dagger:

The Cloven Bunny
also Mark Ryden

lots of love for you all tonight

lady of the house of love

This Could All Go So Wrong.

I stole this picture.

I think about tattoos WAY too much.

- Dagger.