It Gets In My Head

today has been horrific... last night my mac book broke and i spent 4 hours in the apple store today... and now ive been waiting for 3 hours for my files to transfer so i can actually do some work

f.m.l

lady of the house of love

.

I left to get a zip at half eleven this morning.
I got back at about half three with a zip, a new coat, and some paint on my foot.

Oh, how I love my life.

-Dagger.

Text Engineer..

i actually dropped my phone in the bath

FUCK
MY
LIFE

lady of the house of love

The City Called Me So I Came

today in the city i fell in love with every person who gave me the tiniest bit of eye contact

then i walked around the tate britain for 2 and a half hours, dodging a school trip of french teenagers shouting and i contemplated life. i ended up opposite Ophelia again and Chatterton

pre raphaelite art makes me feel calm

and then a banana exploded in my bag

lady of the house of love

It fucking hurts.
In my heart and the back of my eyes.

- Dagger.

Because The Night Belongs To Lovers

so last night was the battle of the unis bar crawl; this is how it went

started off at Anitas:

drank a big bottle of WKD (yes i was on the alcopops...its bad i know)

ate pizza and curly fries

met everyone at Level 1:

drank 2 VKs-used the loo

went to Revolution:

had 2 mystery shots, 1 Vk... bumped into emma and friends

went to superfly, wouldn't let us in cos it was too packed

went to walkabout:

drank 1 shot, 1 smirnoff ice

went to varsity:

1 more shot 1 more apple Vk

got bored

went to zanzibar:

drank 4 more Vks, chatted to a moron, danced around

walked home, got high five from a policewoman, went to macdonalds, came home, went to bed

was woken up at aprox. 530 by neighbour who ressembles snoop dog, by playing music and talking louldy, which then followed by some very vocal sex, i'm talking bed squeeking, banging into the wall and the full works.... it was bad times... i should have knocked and told them to shut it

so i've been awake for about 2 hours and i'm off to make myself a bagel

lady of the house of love

String-Along-Song

first of all i would like to apologise for the lack of blogging activity as of late

but we have been far to busy experiencing life for the past 4 days

this is just a short post to generall ask you all why boys are so complicated?!?!

i thought we had a good night out but apparently not

apparently im only worth a kiss on the cheek

and i havent even had a text today

but you know what his catch phrase is? its 'swish' this makes me feel a bit better

and my work is still lame

even though it inspired by this:

Louise Bourgeios-clearly

lady of the house of love

He's Dead! I'm Dead!

no picture today

right now i'm pretty sure my head might explode at any moment

today i am feeling overwhelmed

but instead of working i'm blogging... moron much

and today i was waiting for my dinner cook while listening to Anti-Flag and i realised that i am a huge contradiction and parody of myself

and then i stabbed a needle into my thumb (not on purpose obviously)

today has been full of ups and downs

lady of the house of love

You Said We Were Meant To Be

so today i needed a second hand garment... i bought one at the weekend so all was fine

until i got into uni and realised that i left it at home

so i ran back to my flat and then ran back again

and was still 10 minutes late

the tutor scares me

and then had a good rant about being late

actually fml

but i found some people to have tea with which is always good

out tonight... up early tomorrow... probably not a good idea

but expect a picture of me in a nurses outfit tomorrow

this has nothing to do with this post but i love it so much i wanted to share

Dali and Duchamp

quite possibly the best combo IN THE WORLD

lady of the house of love

XxX

It's Actually Quite A Pleasant Feeling.

The low point of my day... picking basil pasta out of my bag and into a bin. In the middle of Cambridge High Street. Whilst not wearing a bra.

- Dagger.

Jesus Died For Somebody's Sins But Not Mine

i recently discovered Patti Smith... she rocks my world and makes everything seem a little better

so stuff is still fucked up

but i think i feel slightly better

Dagger makes me feel less stressed out

so big hugs for her

i can't quite decide if i'm excited or not

or just a bit nervous

and i seem to be permanently in a bad mood

i will post once more from basildon and then its to university i go

wish me luck, if any thing else goes wrong i will defo need it

lady of the house of love

No One Could Love Me This Way

no picture today

i was just explaining to a good friend of mine everything that is wrong with my life right now

i've had a very bad day today

heres a copy of that list

1. i sent off for a citzencard which should have turned up yesterday and it hasnt and i didnt fill in the form right so now i have to send it back and i needed it for this weekend
2. I cant open a new bank account without any id
3. i also cant go out tonight with out any id, which means i wont get to see the college girls before i go uni
4. i still havent heard from student finance so i have no money
5. im moving in 3 days and i havent even begun to pack
6. and i still wont have any id for when i get there
7. i cant send off my passport form cos student finace have got my birth certificate
8. my parents have replaced me with 2 kittens, a camera and guiter hero 5
9. i won't have a room when i come home from uni
10. i hate my unsymmetrical face
11. i hate my hair
12. and my general fat personage
13. i've had stomach ache for 3 days
14. and i've hardly slept all week

fuck my life

fuck me and my life

lady of the house of love

Are You Angry?

No picture today.

I've decided I'm not leaving my house today. The cinema can come to me.
I tried on everything in my wardrobe and ended up wearing my frog print pjs.

- Dagger.

Forever Bruised And Black Eyed

www.colorquiz.com

I found this on http://rubiexoxo.blogspot.com/
and i felt i just had to take the test myself...thank you for posting this and giving me something to do on my boring tuesday night.
these are my results...what do you think?

Your Existing Situation
"Is sensitive and easily influenced by other's thoughts and emotions. Looking for friendly, easy-going relationships and jobs that help develop them."

Your Stress Sources
"Sensitive, gentle, and emotional; having a strong need to find some sort of magical harmony and beauty. Artistic in nature, she longs to find a partner who finds these things important as well; however, having trouble finding such a perfect person. Keeps a close eye on her emotional and how much of herself is given to others. she must always know where she stands with others and longs to be regarded with respect. her taste are geared to the artistically beautiful and refined, but she can be harsh and critical of works of art and creativity. Yearns to make friends with those who can help build her intelligence and artistic ability."

Your Restrained Characteristics
Current events leave her feeling forced into compromise in order to avoid being cut off from affection or future cooperation.
Conceited and is easily insulted. Holds back emotionally but is able to find satisfaction through sexual activity.

Your Desired Objective
"Is very goal oriented and driven, and does not allow things to distract her from reaching her goals. Overcomes all obstacles she is faced with. Wants to gain recognition and a good reputation for her successes."

Your Actual Problem
"Wishes she was more spontaneous and impulsive, but holds back because she needs things to be in order, rational, and clearly defined."
"Enjoys making new plans and goals, but needs to be respected and admired for the things she accomplishes."

well this makes me feel vulnerable and insecure

lady of the house of love

I'd Started Wearing Makeup In Broad Daylight Age 14

There is something about this that drives me crazy (sorry about the crap scan though)

see Kabukimagic.com

i have just composed an angry letter to student finance, it probably won't make them sort out my application any quicker but it makes me feel slighlty better about the situation

its really quite hot in here... i should probably shower before i'm late

lady of the house of love

XxX

God Must Hate Me

actually fuck my life

student finance actually hate me

if i don't get this sorted out i'm actually not going to university

cos as we all know i am dirt poor....

do you know why this has happened?

because i was just starting to look forward to it

and as usual its come to bite me in the arse

so thanks for that

no picture- obviously

lady of the house of love

no kisses- obviously

Exhale, Exhale

so today was the last day,

i have actually been working there for 3 years

they made me a card though

which made me realise that no one in retail can actually spell correctly

and K didn't get into university which makes me feel rather smug

no matter how mean that is... i'm willing to take karma on

but that might not be such a good idea as i now need a new job

right now i should be doing something productive

but i'm not feeling creative or inspired

and all i want to do right now is listen to loud music and eat chocolate

but the moving out day is getting closer and closer

and i'm not prepared in any way shape or form

"and i will die all alone and when i arrive i won't know anyone"

and so i need to post this picture

to remember better times of living in bubbles

sorry

i'm feeling rather down today

lady of the house of love

Got No Friends, Got No Lover

(its sad cos its true)

so i nearly didn't get to go to reading festival

i nearly had a nervous break down

the post office lost my ticket

but they found it again and it should turn up tomorrow

so now i can go back to being excited

but there are loads of band clashes... bad times

florence and the machine or placebo?

maximo park, maccabees or madcaddies?

but some more good news... i can definately see patrick wolf

for

the

win

the of this post was generally fuck my life

todays picture- last years camp site... isn't the sky pretty?

lady of the house of love

XxX

The First Name I'm Going To Call

so today i'm suffering a bit
we'll call it flu but i'm clearly making it out to be worse than it is
i'm a bit of a drama queen...i'm sure you've worked this out
as long as i'm better for thursday everything will be fine

i've spent all day in my pjs
and now i'm going to get in the shower
colour my hair
and put some more pjs on

i still haven't called student finance

and last night i had a dream about a pregnant woman being tattooed

the night before i dreamt about caterpillars crawling on my feet

i need to sort my brain out

and find my creativity and my motivation

can you help me?

lady of the house of love

Maybe This Time

Everybody Loves A Winner So Nobody Loves Me

Lady Peaceful, Lady Happy, That's What I Want To Beeeeee!

i need to find this DVD right now

my life depends on it

lady of the house of love