The Sun Is Often Out

i've gone past the point of caring if you still read this or not.

i need you to love me like you used to

lady of the house of love

She Puts The Weight Into My Little Heart

i just hope that somewhere in the near future you'll realise you've made a massive mistake

lady of the house of love

I Am The One And Only

last time i was in that club

we made out in the corner and you told me that one day you'd like to marry me

i just wonder what has changed since then.

i can't wait for you to come home

lady of the house of love

Try To Ignore All This Blood On The Floor

Its Just My Heart On My Sleeve Bleeding

lady of the house of love

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This is a slightly sober and slightly emotional message. I am in one of those moods where I have drunk lots, cried lots and really need a hug. Usually I'd ring you, but I can't.

- Dagger.

I Love You Though You Hurt Me So

lady of the house of love

I Just Want To Tell You How I'm Feeling (The One Where I Actually Do.)

- I can't talk to you about this any more. You can't see how badly you're hurting him, and quite frankly it makes you a cunt.
- I didn't particularly want to come out last night, as I didn't particularly want to stand next to three people who've seen me naked and make small talk. However, I'm truly glad we talk again, you're truly lovely to me.
- I am very, very glad we talk again. I didn't realise it'd been four years, but I remember why we were so close.
- You're amazing and I'm glad you live in my living room.
- I miss you. You have no idea how much. People tell me I will get over the relationship, and yeah, I don't miss 'us' as a concept, but I miss beardy, useless, funny, cuddly, small handed you.
- Have fun fucking in Europe. You're shit at it.
- I'm a little bit glad I'm not over thinking things.
- Something clichéd about how I thought I was different/special/meaningful.
- You're cool. And I'm sorry things are too much for me right now.

I am so sick of being hurt.

- Dagger.

I Just Want To Tell You How I'm Feeling.

- Dagger.

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Things That I Have Realised That Really, Really Suck:

- I may be desperately in love with my best friend. This did not work at fourteen, sixteen nor eighteen. I doubt it will work at twenty.

- Our graduation gowns are blue and yellow. BLUE AND YELLOW.

- I have actually bitten a massive chunk out of the inside of my mouth.

- My tutor is mad at me for something I didn't even say.

- The kitchen is always a mess.

- Whilst drunkenly in bed with a gentleman friend the other day I drunkenly went into detail about my hairy legs and lesbian sex.

- My mother would be intensely ashamed of the number of people I've slept with.

On the other hand I have melon.

- Dagger.

Can You Tell That I'm Loosing Myself?

who wants to wallow in self pity with me?

lady of the house of love

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"Attired in bridal veil and leather greatcoat, Phoebe Haines offered a kind of Cindi Lauper punk to Cassandra."


Review on the guardian baby.


-Dagger.

Tell You Stories Of A Better Time

this morning made me think about doing something that i haven't thought about since i was 18

lady of the house of love

A Note From First Year.

P.S. you're having a bubble if you think I'm going to go out of my way for you after the way you've treated me this evening.

Did I ever realistically use the phrase 'having a bubble'?

- Dagger.

You're Not Coming Home Tonight

i've eaten way too many custard creams
but i will be getting dressed up tomorrow

lady of the house of love

All Those Shadows There..

lady of the house of love

first day back at uni and already my life is OVER

lady of the house of love

Last Night I Got My Drink Spiked.

I threw up three times outside a Chinese Restaurant. 

Male reaction to this fact:
- Telling me my sick smelt like pea soup.
- Chatting me up outside a chip shop.
- Telling me I should have been more careful with my drink.
- Trying to kiss me after the fourth vomit fit.
- Genuinely lovely concern.

I possibly should have been more careful with my drink. But I should possibly also be able to go out dancing without people drugging me.

- Dagger.