Well I Know What It Is But I Don't Know Where It Is

I Know Where It Is But I Don't Know What It Looks Like

so i've been listening to talking heads again...

so i was told i need to blog more, i woul'd if i had anything exciting to say
which is better:
Group A-
Comme Des Garcons
Maison Martin Margeila
Giles
Basso&Brooke
Christopher Kane
Balenciaga
or
Group B-
Preen
Richard Nichol
Alexander McQueen
Jonathan Saunders
Gareth Pugh
Boudicca

i need to decide for this summer project...
something is telling me to go for group A
the problem is... my illustrations suck, i'm not cut out for fashion, i'm not fashiony enough... but what on earth would i do instead?
why do i find things so difficult?
and why can't i find anything to say right now
i'm afraid to grow up

as i was saying not a fashion drawing:

i haven't even got there and i'm afraid of failing

lady of the house of love

This Is The End Of The Line.

"Rent A Flat Above A Shop, Cut Your Hair And Get A Job."

I'm actually living the dream.

-Dagger

We Hate This City.

Photographer.

I bury my head in grammar.
A double bed which is utter luxury after the basement in Chelsea.
Kisses which I will miss. Deep and feeling and full of love.
I run through his curly hair. Hair wax that smells like herbal tea.
He touches my shaved head in the same way you’d touch a cat.
I melt into him. His strong chest which makes me Scarlett O’Hara.
Stomach and arms and silk.
His skin is always so warm and I want to surround myself with him.
I could drown in his sweat. I could drown in his skin.
I could wrap his hair around my body and live on for ever happy.
Side by side by side by side for ever by your side.
Hips grinding together I want to swallow in his love.
The City of Brighton is on fire.

-Dagger.

Everyday Should Be Like This Song

Writing You Love Letters...

My English may not be the best, but you still love me.
I cry and babble when I want to express things but you understand.
You remind me that true romance exists and its not just in films.
You give me songs in the night and I smile as I sleep.
You understand when I get emotional in Topshop because things
'Just don't fit.'
A rare rose you are, a beautiful warrior.
A lover and a friend.
I write and you read.
And my views are understood
You understand me?
I close my eyes and everything disappears with your smile.
I wanted a genuine Real Love and you gave it..
No Conditions.
No Tricks.
Nothing fake.
You are just like ' Let me Love you!'
and I am like 'I just don't know how, I have been so bruised before'
You wrap me in your arms and you won't let me go.
whispering....
'Darling, your way to precious for me to leave and its one day at a time
..Every moment I am writing you love letters
showing you I'll never leave.
Telling you
How much I love you.
And how you are worth it all
I Love you my Darling
and I will always be writing Love letters to you.'
'


Loving the Greatest Love ♥

Children.

I hope she doesn't mind me posting this...

-Dagger.

Bubble Monster.

How did I end up a skinhead?

-Dagger.

I Listen To Rock And Roll

Today I got my palm read.
He looked straight into my eyes and said "Don't worry, you'll be happy one day."

- Dagger.

The Real Damage

there is something about this collection that drives me wild, although i can't quite tell you why

my legs don't seem to want to work today

"Now i'm hung over and down, I stood on a street corner and I felt a little sick, then i realised i'm half way through the first day of the week"

lady of the house of love

still no kisses

Losing My Religion

because this is the last song i remember hearing last night

'did i have one to begin with?'

earlier i knew exactly what i wanted to say but i have no idea what that was now

i woke up this morning on a sofa in a strange house

wearing no tights, chipped nail polish and smudged make up

"at my most beautiful i count your eyelashes"

i finally got home at half past 9 this morning

slept until 3, drank a cup of tea and ate 2 chocolate biscuits- even though i keep telling myself i'm giving up sugar cos im terrified of my teeth falling out

i drank a cup of tea whilst waiting for the train this morning

i burnt my tongue and it still stings

last night i saw you kissing another girl, and after a few moments of self loathing i realised that i actually don't care

"i wasn't lonely until i saw you"

we walked from southend to lee on sea with a plank of wood saying 'lulu belle' on the side and a plastic life ring, which was hastily dropped when being past by a police car "good morning"
it took us 3 hours

why didn't we stick to our original plan?!?

i seem to remember being felt up by a pool table

i smashed 2 glasses

we spent the whole train journey there talking about Harry Potter

we spent the whole train journey home avoiding eye contact and being bumped by men in suits

i have alot of quotes for today

i feel like a Frank Turner Song

lady of the house of love

no kisses today

One Two Three, One Two Three.

Lipton again.

Him: I don't know what to say to that .

No. Well. Fuck that.

"I want to swallow in his love."

-Dagger.

SEX SHOULDN'T BE COMFY!

you have no idea how much i want to be this woman

"please god tell me i haven't inspired something burgundy"



lady of the house of love



XxX

Walking Home Happy.

Laurie Lipton.
She makes my day.
"My relations used to look at me, a cute little girl in a pretty frilly dress, then look at my drawings, and slowly back away."

-Dagger.

My Daddy Was A Bank Robber.

This is a suprisingly girly post from the skinhead.
I want a dress made out of these flowers.

-Dagger.

I'm Just A City Boy.

FUCK MY LIFE.

I'm not a size 10 and my legs meet in the middle and I cannot twirl my hair around my fingers whilst I fail to flirt with you.

-Dagger

Going back to child play...

I believe this picture gave me utter joy...Lego Baby!!

I remember the times i was making houses and now its on my wrist ha ha...

Excuse to be a child again

I am not suprised if there is a collab some time soon. :D

Bringing out the over excited child.

Two sugars

Bouncing off...It must be the tango.

Let's Find Another Song.

I need to get over using leather in my bridal wear project.
Or maybe I don't.
Maybe I need to find some animal friendly substitute and just get the fuck on with it.

I need some re-assurance right now please and thank you.

- Dagger.

He Looks Like He Hates Everyone.

Life should be more like a musical.

Or a night club. Or something.

-Dagger.

Kinda Dancing Though Not At All

it would seem that this blog, although it was started with the intenions of becoming a fashion blog has morphed into a mixture of our love lives, our habits, our conversations and maybe a tiny bit of fashion, even though most of it is fetish based.

but anyway i feel the need to share on particular convo with you, this happened aprox. 10 minutes ago via facebook... damn facebook

E: so how's the job going? find anything else?

S: i found a watch the other day lol

E: lol nice?

S:nah its barbie lol but im wearing it

E: i can imagine you can pull it off quite well haha

S:lol i guess thats a compliment lol
well im offskies

E: kk then have fun

S: chat soon
bye buddy
xxx

the moral of the story is, i epic fail: at life

i'm sorry dear reader, i'm feeling quite angsty this eve

lady of the house of love

Three is the magic number

I wanna wear harem trousers and Doc Martens
Yes its fine...
Here laughing at the fact that I have goregeous fashion fat....Darling thats allowed.
I wanna wear shirts and cravats and not be mistaken for a misunderstood teen.
I wanna wear old lady loafers and not worry that my feet will get wet
I want more money
I want to get some dresses from All Saints and hum De La Soul.
They say 3 is the magic number mine is 8..

Two Sugars
or Three

<3

Some Girls They Have Natural Ease...

...They Wear It Anyway They Please, With Their French Flip Curls And Perfumed Magazines..

i don't have any fashion today

in fact i don't have much of anything

today, whilst being bored at work i remembered this conversation...

B: gosh don't you have long legs!?!

E: yes but they are hidiously out of proportion in comparison to the length of my body

B: oh but i'd much rather have long legs than a long body

H: you see B, E is a real woman, she goes in and out in all the right places

E: know you see why i rarely wear jeans


i don't know why but i'm still quite offended by that comment

maybe i'm a little sensitive about these things

for a few weeks now i have been suffering from the fear of getting old

i'm actually quite terrified of reaching 20 let alone 60

" what will you look like when you're old? what will i do if i don't know you?"

so... yeah... the sky has been grey today

lady of the house of love

Don't Tell Me Truth Hurts Little Girl

I honestly never get tired of seeing my own work on the catwalk.
More images here.

- Dagger

Outlined In Chalk.

She looks like she's throwing up feathers.

Wow. I'm actually blogging about fashion.

Me and my Lady had a conversation the other day about how much she wanted to make a cage skirt/couldn't be bothered to. I feel I objected to the concept as a whole.
I feel my Lady should click here.

Too much fashion.
I need to say something depressing.
Seriously click that link.

-Dagger

Fuck This

I've actually sat here for about ten minutes now figuring out how I could wear this with that brown dress I always wear.

-Dagger.

Curl Up And Die

Still no pictures.

"Her: How was your day?
Him: Possibly the worst day of my life so far."

This blog is never about fashion anymore.

-Dagger

I Know You Could.

No picture today.


Okay. This might of cheered me up a little bit.

I've kind of decided I want to make a pair of red leather trousers for this stupid BRIDAL WEAR project.

I like to shout and swear about this project, but I supose it's one of those things I love to hate. I kind of feel sorry for my new tutor though. I've already sworn three times, drawn a picture of myself as a corpse and casually chatted about loosing my virginity.
And I'm seriously considering those leather trousers.

Her: How are you feeling today?
Me: Do you wnat to know how depressed I am? I went downstairs with no make up on earlier to buy a massive bar of chocolate.
Her: Oh. Oh dear.

- Dagger.

This Sucks.

Me: Everything makes me feel fat.

That is actually the only sentance I can put together right now. Let me wallow in self pitty for a while.

- Dagger.

Battle

my dear reader,

i know it's rare for me to post so close to each other but i'm afraid i have a small rant to share with you.

last week i promised i would take my younger sister swimming so today we went shopping to find me a bikini because, the last time i went swimming was about 5 years ago...anyway...

i very foolishly thought it would be easy to find one i liked but sadly we were running around town for 3 hours!

and all i found was either swim suits that make me look like an old woman or a porn star.... also as a size 12 girl i do not appreciate bikini tops that only just cover your nipples and let your boobs escape at the sides!

being as i am actually swimming with my 10 year old sister its quite important that my chest stay in place... if i was sun bathing i don't think it would be such an issue

now i don't like to think of myself as a 'big' girl but i would like to at least find some semi decent swim wear that actually holds my boobs in.

i feel i should make it my mission to actually design some nice swim wear but i don't think i could actually bring myself to do it in case i myself come up with something totally horrific.

we even looked in the sports shops... yes that's right folks i went into a sport shop.... they were all done my gold digga etc and all made for girls in hip hop music videos that just make me cringe!

in the end i had to settle with this:

now it could be worse... and it does show off both my inks rather well but its hadly perfect is it? and the bottoms are 2 sizes too big because thats all they had so please pray to the fashion god for me that they don't fall down when i get out of the pool.

on another sad note... saw harry potter and the half blood prince... let down... what a surprise

on a brighter note today i bought the sound of music on dvd for £3! i also got mary poppins and sleeping beauty... i know what i shall be doing tomorrow...

good night dear reader

lady of the house of love

XxX

Mother I Can Feel The Soil Falling Over My Head

things i would commit murder for:

all from this seasons Indie mag

i can't wait to never have to go back to that horrible place ever again

bring on the last shift next saturday

'i was looking for a job then i found a job and heaven knows i'm miserable now'

lady of the house of love

XxX

We Cannot Cling To Those Dreams.

I am going to be sad.

This post is going to have paragraphs rather than random statments. Hopefully.

So. Last night I ripped my nose stud out taking my glasses off in a really stupid way. It bled and I swore a lot.
My mum is quite good in a dilema.

The stupidest thing I've said today: "I still look like a dirty fucking hardcore bitch in my pjs."
Not quite.

Oh. I had a photo shoot on monday morning. My photographer insisted I bring lots of different PVC outfits and then looked terrified of every single one. We got some quite good shots though. Meh.

I like being blonde. I like it a lot. Feeling girly/quirky/pretty/more like my actual self. Scared of learning to swim/ having to take my hair and make up off to do it.
Bikini shopping was horrific and he rang me and I swore at him.

FUCK.

I got drunk and cried in the pub and he told me I look really pretty when I cry even if it makes his insides hurt.

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.

I'm so boring when I actually talk.

-Dagger.

What Does Your Tattoo Say?

Is it just me and my tiny tiny laptop having problems commenting on this damn blog?

So. Yes. I love to club club club.

- Dagger

I'm Not Calling You A Liar...

No. 1- Emily? Have you ever been in love?

Lady - erm... i don't think so

No.2- what do you mean you don't think so?

Lady- well you know its very hard to tell

No.1- you don't seem to be the sort of girl who could have her heart broken very easily

No.2- yeah she would punch them in the nose


do i really come across this way?

today has been a dead day

"And what is an angel
but a ghost in drag?"

lady of the house of love

XxX

Free Wifi

I drunk your sweat and said your name.

- Dagger

Punks Aren't Allowed Forks...

Skinheads Aren't Allowed Spoons...

so we went shopping

i met the american

i wore i dress that i made

walked a million miles to primark

got a blister from my boots

freaked out in topshop

bought a leather cuff with 3 buckles

laughed at a guy singing along to 'word up'

bought the florence and the machine album

enjoyed the rain

enjoyed the wind

had many needles jabbed in my back

fell in love

planned my next love

was complimented

felt amazing about myself

much love children

lady of the house of love

XxX

Oh.

So. Today I am blonde.

- Dagger.

Happy Birthday

Did I ever actually look like that?

Shocking.

-Dagger.

Everybody's Gotta Learn Sometime

so...
ive been sick this weekend
which has gotten me off work which is good
but i wish my ribs didnt hurt
and i wish i could eat something more than dry toast
i watched eternal sunshine again today
i also have a habit of falling in love with anyone who shows me the least bit of attention
i've got a bruise on my hip bone
but i didnt get it from throwing up
i also watched the sound of music today
my god i love Julie Andrews
i really might have to add Austria to my travels
i wish i had some interesting scars
i think im going to paint my nails red again
as long as i am better for tuesday it doesnt really matter
i may have the worst headache in the world

have i ever told you that i love you

i don't like punctuation today

lady of the house of love

XxX

Saturday Wait.

My Saturday started with me- no wig, no shoes- shouting Pulp lyrics at a metal head.

It all ended with ambulances.
He was resisting the incubator.

-Dagger

Dirty Punk

I want to get my lipstick all over your face.

-Dagger

Would You Love Me More If I Had Hair?

I think my head is fucked.

I'm slightly embarrassed about this picture. I think I look like a prostitute but I probably don't. I have nothing in common with that woman. We would not get on if we met down the pub.

It's like looking at a snapshot of another girl and it makes me very uncomfortable.

I feel more femminnie bald.

- Dagger

Your Lack Of Hair Really Suits You

So today...
- I shaved my head.
- I got a tattoo that didn't hurt as much as it should have.
- I got colour back into my thumbs.
- I gave a boy an errection. Apparantly. Don't take HIS word for it.
- I took my top off?
- I thought about someone. A lot.
- I told my mum about someone =)
- I realised my mum actually gets me a lot more than she should.
- I did not sew. Mwahahahaha!
- I got more ice lollies.

Exciting day.

-Dagger.

They Look Like Rocks.

This morning I woke up happy.

-Dagger